Hello everyone. I’m Kenny Sansom and if you stopped anyone in the street, they’d probably tell you that I’m known for two things: my career as a professional footballer and, unfortunately, for my struggles with alcohol since I retired.
You will have read many things about me over time – much of it good I hope, some not so good. A lot has been written about my career and life, but only one person can take you under the bonnet and tell you the truth: and that is me.
I’m sober and I don’t want to drink again. Alcohol has taken everything from me, but I’ve had enough of alcohol.
I’ve read an interesting poem recently about how if you let something become the master of you, it’s like the devil.
I can understand that regarding alcohol. It’s that voice in your head that tells you that alcohol is the answer to your problems. But it isn’t and I don’t want it to be any more. Alcohol became the master of me, but I mustn’t let that master win. I don’t want to give it the satisfaction. I mustn’t let it happen again.
I hope to be writing a regular column for Zapsportz, to give you an insight into my life, in my words and my professional views on football. I might not be able to play anymore, but I know everything there is to know about the game. Well, maybe not everything, but definitely close!
I desperately want to be involved back in football, in coaching, or maybe watching matches and giving reports back on what I’ve spotted. I’m honoured that there is still a lot of love and goodwill out there for me, but I also know that I have to prove to people that I am sober.
If people are to rely on me, I have to be reliable for them. I know lots of simple ways to help players improve their game. You don’t captain Arsenal and win 86 caps for England, without having something to offer! Thanks everyone, for your support.
PS: every single football club I played for, I loved it. Every minute of my playing career, I loved, even when I played at amateur level. My aim now is to make my life that happy again, as good as my football life was.
Interview by Simon Rose